Devastation

A poem about believing lies.

Photo by Kiki Siepel on Unsplash

Leaving you was the hardest thing I ever had to do.

I would sit and think of our once blissful memories, that now make me feel blue.

I believed in you, I believed in us,

I believed in this life that soon would be.

I thought eventually we’d get married, and two would become three.

You rapped my thoughts around your finger and they swirled and uplifted me.

I listened on every command because weakness was what I felt when I was around thee.

You promised me things that I always wanted like a big house and a ring.

But when you found out I was pregnant those lies changed so quickly.

Your true thoughts began to creep out like a mouse in a crack.

Those lies you once told were exposed, like a magician with a hat.

I thought you would be happy, but instead your eyes went dim and dead.

Your soul seemed empty, you sunk as you dropped your head.

I would say you were devastated, but even that wouldn’t be the correct word to say…

You treated me like I ruined your life,

It seemed I was the one who caused you such sadness and pain

Then you told me the harshest words I ever thought a man could say,

You wanted me to abort our sweet baby, the baby that I thought we would eventually have someday.

Looking back I’m happy I put up a fight.

Even though at times it didn’t feel right

I’m thankful I kept this sweet child of mine.

She was the light in all this darkness, the best decision of my life.

Though this poem was overall fiction (fake), the inspiration for this poem comes from some rough relationships I’ve had as a young girl.

Often times I was quick to believe whatever a boyfriend would tell me, leading me to feel devastated when I realized they were lying. So I really wanted to tap into that emotion to create a powerful story through poetry.

Thanks for reading!

• Alexandria Cooper

(Owner of ‘Own Confidently’)